I've been reading through "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young the last month. It's a daily devotional with thoughts that truly draw you into a more intimate and personal conversation with Jesus. I've never read something that so closely draws Scripture into a personal conversation from Jesus to me.
I've noticed a theme lately. Jesus wants me to need Him desperately all the time. Oh, I know I need Him... "In our weakness, He is strong." The problem is that my thinking has been that this applies when we have a "moments" or "situations" or "seasons" of weakness. Then they will pass and I will be strong again. Because at some point, Cynthia, you have to be strong, right?
I don't like to feel weak, do you? Do you think that our weaknesses may be the only thing that forces us to reach out and accept the hand of Jesus sometimes? I'm accepting that I need to hold on all the time. Not just to get me out of a pit, but truly to never let go regardless of my circumstances. This may not be profound to you, but I'm experiencing some new and fresh moments of intimacy with my Savior right now that are uncomfortable but also so refreshing.
I'm in process right now with all this, but I encourage you to embrace weakness as a lifestyle. For me, I'm experiencing some freedom in some areas that I have never felt before because I'm not fighting it. Lean into it, friend, and allow the hand of the Savior to never leave yours. Be weak and be ok with it.
"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express." - Romans 8:26 (NIV)