Ralph Waldo Emerson said, "Every artist was first an amateur." It has been a long time since I have felt like such an amateur when it comes to music. I am there right now learning to play acoustic and lead worship for services. There are some Sundays that I think, "Wow. I am really not that bad." and then there are Sundays (like this last Sunday) that I feel,"Cynthia, you would never let yourself play in your OWN band!" Today, I was rehearsing for our Beach Service this week (yeah,life's tough) and it just clicked today as I was playing HOW much this journey of learning a new instrument has been THE BEST thing to happen to me as a musician in a LONG time. I am energized, frustrated, excited, mad, and loving the process all at the same time. I could lead worship and play keys in my sleep at this point in my life and this is making me engage at a level that I have not had to do in some time. So, I like being an amateur right now...it's kicking my butt and I'm loving it!