Jumpin' & Cryin'

I know my blogs have been sparse lately, but I am sparing you the reader from my emotional roller coasters...moving with a 6 week old baby and leaving a place you love can cause quite the stir in the ol' emotional tank.  Not to mention an almost 3 year old that hasn't had her mom functioning at full capacity for at least the last 5 months...guilt - check!  The light is finally dawning (or maybe I am just excited about seeing Spider-Man 3 on Saturday!!! Yes, I already have tickets).  Whatever this ride has been the last few months, it has not been boring!  Todd and I moved to NYC to help our good friends start a church...God makes it very clear to us that we had fulfilled our purpose in going to NYC, and now we are here in a place very much like NYC as far as people and we are starting another church...this time, though, it is just the 2 of us (isn't that a song?)  I have intense feelings of such gratitude for how God has given Todd and I such great adventures with Him and at the same time I feel sick when I think about it...Have you ever wanted to jump up and down at the same time that you want to curl up in a ball and cry?  I can finally identify with David in the Bible in the book of Psalms when he would write such words of lament and follow them with words of such exuberance(I am doing a study on David's life right now...). "Why am I discouraged?  Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God!  I will praise him again—my Savior and my God!" Ps. 42:11.   My heart aches for my friends I have left at different places on the journey - to see my daughter develop friendships and have to leave them - and yet I wouldn't trade this new road for anything because this is where HE wants me to be...so for now, I am living in both worlds... joy and sorrow...they can go hand in hand.